Him

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 We met on bumble 16/8/2022 that same night we met up and went to gongcha cabramatta and then drove around and got to know each other. That night i didn't really cared about him or didn't think i would date him because he wasn't australian born. I was wearing my pjs out:L i didn't make an effort on dates.

Knowing him i didn't think he would be interested in me anyways. The next day he messaged me and ask if i wanted to come out and i agreed then he drove to dragonbowl and asked if i was hungry and ordered a feast. Then within a week he came around to drop off some lobster and noodles from dragonbowl. Weeks later he message me if we can go further. I didn't really answered him but we started having dates and night drives. This was the point my parents got upset going out at odd hours like 3am. Then one day at work he message me to borrow money i leant him and then it was abit of a drama between mum and him. Til today his fine but my mum hates him. 

Everytime i see him the energy is always off when i come home. And the nasty words i hear from her i know i said it before i rather pick family then stranger but at this point i couldn't let him go. He has been there for me when i needed someone to listen to, he was there when i was in hospital and he was there when i was a mess. He helped me have temporary shelter and food to eat. I was out of home for awhile until my mental health let me down. I had to start again but he was so patient and believed i get better. He has helped me reach my goals and made me be better and grow older and thinking more openly. See things i never though i come across. Experiences that i dont think i ever experience. 

Thank you for everything you've done for me the last 3 years. It was rough but we are stronger together. 

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