Reaccount my mental relapse

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i felt like everything was going well until money got involved my parents dislike him and not so supportive of our relationship 2023 was also a tough year i left home and stayed with him for couple of months and i choose him over my family i needed my freedom and be treated like an adult. I can't be here forever. I know i will miss my family but its the hard reality. Alot went on my head and why no one sees he is a good person and have treated me well with respect. I try explaining but nothing works its so fucking hard for me to go through this what called mental health and struggle to have my freedom of choice to do whatever i want. I know you don't want me to get hurt i won't and i will be fine.

somehow i got put into hospital again. I dont believe my diagnosis. Its emotions why i can't i expresss myself in a way no one can understand. You don't like it its ok its my life. you try to scare me but im not scared.  I was happy. Now im not so much.  This better than hospital no. i prefer staying in hospital beccause i get my freedom. Staying home and be judged by your own family is most painful. I have to get out of this.

These were all of my thoughts going in my head i just couldnt find a place to put it.

So i found blogsport and gonna do mind dumpings here. 

If it wasn't for my family to support me through these times i wouldnt be here i am grateful and blessed.

I hope this year will get me out of this hole im in. 

Im sorry to hurt you all while im hurting myself. Just give me more time.

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