Hospital experience #2

 I fainted at the first night in the mental ward and cracked my jaw. I had a surgery to stitch up the wound. I now have a scar on my jaw but can't see it only feel it. If it wasn't for my sister to call up and check if im sleeping and idk where i would be. I don't know anything that happened i remember falling down but now i can't think of what happened during those time of being in surgery and out. I heard i was blacked out but i don't for how long no matter how hard i try to think its all black and can't think of what has happened. I don't know what ive said and done during those time til when i saw him i became aware of why i was in there. He got all the blame which is not his fault. No one is to blame for my relapse but myself. 

I miss the hospital sometimes because of the OTs, art therapist groups and nurses and doctors that always greets you and have conversatons with them. I always hang around them instead of other patients.