I'm doing this again

 I think being alone is alot better than being in a relationship feeling more lonely. 

I rather spend time doing my hobbies and interests like this whole weekend. I feeling more of myself than being with someone. If you don't like being with them then stop. Don't waste peoples times and its back to me that's my fault. Its my decision. I silenced myself and blocked him without saying anything. I am waiting for my gift but im not that greedy or dating for gifts. I am not wanting to date but it just happened so fast that its almost 3 years since we met and i think its the longest relationship ive been in and its not like the rest but its not the best. I believe there's better but i dont want to be hopeful and be disappointed again. 

I said ill be single forever  i will not get married. im not even dating for marriage. I just having fun until its game over but it ended up deep down but after all this time i wouldn't say i have feelings. Idk what feelings your suppose to feel about them. I just go with the flow. I have to get rid of this it's wasting time. 

my motive here is let this go and be myself.