Put myself back because of this relationship

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 I feel like i stopped moving on with my life because of this relationship. I dont see myself growing anymore and no where to go with this. I dont know if priorities has shifted or whatever. I feel so tired to be hiding a relationship from public like im secretly wrong or cheating or whatever but ive been lying to people when they ask if im in a relationship for 2.5 years i said no. when im not even sure how ishould answer it. Im not very proud of this relationship. I went through some things but thats for me to keep. What he put me through its more than enough reasons to leave but i choose to stay alittle narcist behaviour was coming through. It was scary and i had to leave it but he wont stop contacting me and until i put me first. idc whatever happened happened but its not acceptable.  

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