self doubt and everything negative

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 Its that time of the year where most girls wishes to be the perfect day but its not.

First i don't have any plans but listen to a new song all day!! 

even tho i have a boyfriend but i haven't spent valentines day with him after 2 years because of my health previous years. 

I had lot of self doubt for whats to come this week and this morning had a quick catch up before he goes to work. Its been over a week since weve seen each other and i always thought to myself if this is worth the wait..well i've been 2.5 years in deep so idk what to do. Some days i do message him a huge paragraph and he knows me to well that don't take them seriously. Like every month always i give him a paragraphy of ending the relationship but he gets me all the time. I don't want too but sometimes i think i should. Itsbeen going on for 2.5 years but what would future be like like this. haha we just playing or we serious..

I don't know anymre. its 'valentines day'' tomorrow not expecting anything but another day. Well i hope everyone has a great time expressing your love to your partners because they are your bestfriend:)

Ive already tookmyself to a nice date. we will see mr unromantic do tomorrow. 

im not expecting anything ill be up all night for aga and then i have a day trip to somewhere on saturday so gonna be a busy weekend for me anyways.

i don't know what im doing...just letting my thoughts run haha

its nothing im just being alittle deep with my thoughts.

what i say is my advice,..don't listen to a word i say. its just words

yeah ok im alittle delulu because ive been mindblown too with agas new song.

Alien life:L 


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