One of those nights

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 Where i can't sleep at all. I rolled around and around still can't sleep. I haven't had these nights in a while where i don't sleep at night until early mornings or something who knows when ill sleep. Im in deep thoughts of changing my routines etc. but i don't know how it will turn out. 

I am gonna hopefully see results and a huge change in 21 days as you develop new habits every 21 days. I just need a huge cleanse and reset my whole life again. I rushed into this year too fast...too much happening like traveling and special occasions like Chinese new year and australia day and also valentines day soon. Alot happening every month..so hectic. i need time to myself and do all the self care stuff for myself once a week. I had a nice routine last year but i fell off track.

I need to get into a new routine after next week and i have another trip squeezed in next week. Every trip leads to another haha booking another holiday before a big holiday. Everything will be hectic by may it should ease back down. Told you it was gonna be  big plans. Crazy plans but i am able tackle and go throught them and come back refresh and start again. Never enough holidays. I should take advantage of my 2 year break. 1 year has passed already so i am one year left to be free and do whatever i want before i get forced back into workforce and find jobs. If i get approved again for longer recovery ill take it if i had too, So time will tell. 

No one ever wants to work and i am not privilege i didn't have a choice that this happened to me...its like cancer can happen to anyone.So take care of your health because thats luxury. Having to take medications everyday is a chore its not fun at all and hope to reduce more next monday when i see the new doctor. Im on a treatment plan and i have been good and not refusing medications. I can't wait til im off at least some of these medications...I've had it way too long. Now until next blood test i need to becareful of my diet from today.

less sugar, less sodium, more water and more protein and veggies. 

Lets start this journey now.

I've started with a workout routine and i was sweaty...

time to rest my body and see you again tmr for updates on my instagram @mandymakhau



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