Figuring it out day by day

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Sorry about yesterday i need to stop making decisions when mad. I need to stay calm and not say anything if its not meant to be said. Some are kept quiet and silenced so others don't get mad at them. I will not do and say anything i know i wouldnt want to hear. There are soo many things happened in this year already. Alot to take in but life doesn't stop. You get so busy and you forget to take time and think about what youve done. No matter how wrong i get my family or frriends are always forgives me and sometimes i don't feel like its forgivable for what i said. Words are words but sometimes they hurt more than action. 

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